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Name: Kelsey
Birthday: 7/6/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Writing, drawing, singing, horror films, concerts, Invader Zim/Gir, piercings, tattoos, metal, lots of shit... btw... there's videos at the bottom of my page. Just click the next button to go through them. Whatever's clever dude.
Expertise: Poetry, drawing, singing... other things. ;) Cuddling, hugging, kisses, making people happy, being a fucking dork! lol!
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  BondagedGoth6669
MSN: blue_water_cat@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  mizuneko6
Yahoo:  morbidkeru
Member Since:
8/6/2003
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| Well, I'm going to college now. I'm staying black haired until it gets to be too much anymore. I'm still smoking, of course, pretty fucking hard to just up and quit. Life's ok I guess. School's ok, but I'm probably failing every single class I'm in. Not alot has changed. I have an ex that can't choose between me and one of my best friends. Not cool. I just got a movie the other day called Demons. Keep thinking about people I miss lately. Let alone, not long ago, I got an email from a guy that my friend tried to hook me up with when I was 16. Two weeks after she told me about him, he moved to California. Sucks ass. His name's Christian and god! He's so fucking cute.    See what I mean. Anywho, my friend, Danielle has her CNA degree now. Only took her a month. I love that girl, she's awesome. I already have my Halloween costume. Everything together cost $118. Basically, because the costume was 45, boots 55, and thighhighs 10 or more. It's called the lipstick referee. Kinda gay name, but a cute ass outfit. Sexy ass boots too. Don't think I'm moving anytime soon. I wish I could, but don't have the money. Plus, I was going to move in with that ex, but probably not now. I may move in town. I wish Christian would move back here. Probably a good guy that would treat me right, unlike most. Saddest thing lately is that I've been thinking about James. I dunno why. Probably never going to talk to him again so why does it matter. I just miss talking to him. We'd always have shit to talk about. Laughing and shit. And I can't stop thinking about Christian. Nor talking about him, which annoys the shit out of Danielle I know. Anywho, I don't have much else to talk about. So, I'll write again soon. | |
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| Well, I had many a realization, and honestly, I feel as if we stress out too much in life. People just need to kick back and relax anymore. Life is full of assholes, but shit, fuck them, it's mainly girls who give too much of a shit about what people think about them... I don't anymore, I haven't for a while now, and yes ppl I am a natural blonde, and I'm going back to that... doesn't mean my hair color changes who I am. I love black on me yes, but it's too damaging to keep doing, especially when the best I could afford was box color. And honestly, I'd rather be blonde and proud of it. No, I'm not too proud of it. It's just me. I'm wierd, yes, I don't care. Deal with it if you don't like it. I'm quitting smoking cigarettes, because then, I wouldn't be able to sing as well as I can now, if I keep the damage up. I'm alot better than I was for a while. I don't mind if I fall and get hurt.... oooooooooo! Shit happens, that's just life... my mom was my big realization. I don't care what she thinks. Now that I'm back up and running, I don't care if I can be annoying, shit, at least I'm myself. And yea, I'm getting a job and moving the hell out of here. Being around my mom all the time makes me so paranoid. She acts like I'm 5 and doesn't want me falling down and hurting myself... well.... can't be afraid of falling in life, you know? Yes, I'm extremely smart, so what, I love it. I'm tired of superficial assholes... I'm getting a job again, and getting the fuck out of Wichita. I'll come back every once in a while. But god, this place is too closed-minded for me. Downtown, not so much, but otherwise... most of Wichita. I may stay, I dunno yet... I'm still thinking about it. At least, fuck some of the fucking people I was hanging out with. They are so fake. I can't handle it anymore. I'm stopping smoking cigs, tonight... Don't care... it's too much on me. Can't do it anymore. I think that girls hate me because I get along so much better with guys, so they use me, just to find out about that guy. Fuck that! I'm not putting up with it any longer... | | |
| Well, my moodiness is gone once again and I don't think that it's coming back... I'm a happy bitch, lol! My friend, Matt, snapped out of my bullshit depresso phaze, I seriously am not giving a fuck anymore, I think I was hanging out with Danielle WAAAAAAAAYYYY TOO MUCH! Fuck that shit! Honestly, I think she turned me into this, and thank god for Matt. He's like a brother to me. One of my best friends. I realize as well, why I was hanging out with guys more so. lol! Because they joke and shit and they aren't fuckin' rude. Now on the other hand, I've decided to not hang out with as many girls. Especially some that I was, they're stuck up, stupid bitches. A few are cool. But yea, some of the one's that I was hanging out with are just, I dunno, too prissy and shit, and god! I was turning into that I admit, and it scared the hell out of me. That's just not me, yes I take care of myself and shit, but yea, I don't wear alot of makeup... and I was starting to, oh god! lol! I like makeup, just not alot, all the time, only thing I really choose to wear everyday is eyeliner, but that's not the point. lol! I guess, I feel free again, my spirit, is free.... | | |
| Yea, so I deleted my last entry, because I thought that my ex was being sweet again and I said fuck him in the last one... well I'm a dumbass. Cuz that statement still stands. Fucking bullshitter, I hope he reads this, cuz I know the truth and he doesn't need to sugarcoat shit for me. I don't care how much it hurts. FUCK HIM! Yes, I am staying single, unless someone could show me that they're actually a good guy and not a stupid fuck. Yea, I feel like a nerd for writing in this, but oh well, at least I have somewhere to put down my thoughts and feelings. I'm honestly tired of it all. I put up with so fucking much, and I can't stand it any longer. No, I'm not leaving this world, just tired of everything. Need to be away from it all. But it's kind of hard, when I can't get out of this fucking house. Barely any of the people I hung out with the most even want to come get me or anything. FUCK WICHITA!!! And the most fucked up part is, is that I can't even leave. Just because I fucking have m.s. = I have to stay with my mom and I can't fucking work. Cuz I encounter some fucked up shit. I HATE THIS! I just wish I could get the fuck out... | | |
| I don't think I can feel anymore. Jon's mad at me and fuck Brett. I never should've made that mistake. I honestly hate myself at this moment. I don't think I should be part of anyone's life anymore. I'm just a big fuck up. *cries* | | |
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